I wish..
I wish I never met someone like HIM.. that guy.. who took my heart away but never gave it back, instead, crushed it, and left me behind..
I wish I was sick at the time we went to my friend's house.. so that we were not able see each other and talk to each other and know each other...
I wish he was not there to comfort me when I need somebody.. not there to take care of me when I need somebody.. not there to help me when I need somebody..
I wish.. he was not that "somebody"..
but then again.. I wish.. he is beside me.. and not beside somebody else...
*sigh*... how i really wish...
One step at a time..
diba nakakapagod bumaba nang hagdan? sempre naman mas nakakapagod yata ang umakyat..
diba nakakapagod ang maglakad nang sobrang malayo? sempre naman mas nakakapagod yata kung tatakbuhin mo pa yun.. Life's so tiring nowadays. Many are having a hard time to live their lives. eh baket nga ba? it feels like an hour when its just a minute.. you feel like you want to give up on things that you can't hold on any longer. How is it possible to not let go when the person you're holding on doesn't want to hold on? diba parang napaka saket naman nun? you're trying your best to put things back the way they were, but it is not easy after all. "Kaya ko 'to"... "kakayanin ko"... "kinakaya ko pa"... and then you end up saying... "hindi ko na kaya...". We say to ourselves that we're ok, but deep inside our hearts, we're bleeding to death. What should I do? Ano ba ang tama? ano ba ang dapat? So many questions, but the answers are so few.. parang kanta lng db.. pero hnd ung kasunod na lyrics ang isusulat ko dito.. Moving on is not really an easy thing to do, you'll have to enter this dark chamber wherein there are many trials that you may encounter, like booby traps, falling arrows, stone walls that move, and other painful things like that. but you know what? we just have to accept things, marame naman paraan e. concentrate muna and do a thinking, how will I forget all of these problems in my life? pagkatapos nun, just focus on other things that may lead you to know yourself, and other people around you and may mold you into a better person. pero we should do this one step at a time. wag tayong magmadali, its harder if we rush things, hindi magiging ganun kaganda ung product kapag minamadali e. parang sa hagdan, we should take the steps slowly so that we will not miss the experiences that we may come across in life. And so if we slow down, we may be able to see other people, meet other people, and walk together with that people, making it easier for us to walk, and maybe, we may be able to run. who knows? Only God knows. we just have to believe in Him. Be strong, coz life's not exciting and meaningful without problems! Let's walk until the end of this journey called Life! Fighting!
Happiness?
Sometimes you thought happiness will never come to an end but you'll never really know. Sabe nga nila, the absolute last end is Happiness, ibig sabihin ba nun wala nang pagkatapos nang happiness na un? hahah sempre meron noh. every end comes new beginning. Oh anu to? lecture sa Professional Deonthology? wahahah hindi noh. Wish ko lng kasi i will also achieve happiness in my life, it so hard to live a life full of sorrow and pain. What can make me happy? my family, kung di kame nagkakaron ng fights.. my friends, kung lage lng sila nandyan saken pero minsan hindi e.. hmmm.. cguro boylet noh? hahaha kidding. Boys just give me heartaches and headaches.. hindi sila ang solution in achieving happiness in life.. maybe after graduation, if i can find a nice job and then earn a lot of money... i will surely be happy! haha.. kidding aside, i should just live my life to the fullest. kahet na laging sad, ok lng yan, cguro i will find myself in a nice position in the future, (oie anu iniisip mo jan ha?) but for now, eto muna ko, papetix petix na lng.. masaya naman ang gantong buhay diba? basta hindi lang ako masasaktan and luluha, wahaha.. Did i made any sense here? haaayyyy buhay! *sigh*
